dont EVER fucking drink your troubles away. you drink..and like you said it last for five fucking minutes. and what happens when your nuh drunk..your sick and the problems are still there. cine you need to sort this out..you need to realize that GABE isnt the only man in your life. your 14 love, your so young. i KNOW what its like. to feel like he is the only one that will ever be ENOUGH. truth be told, there are probably a hundred thousand other guys out there, who are BETTER, but how can you know, if your not giving them the fair chance that they deserve.
you and gabe hasnt worked out, obviously. i no my words are harsh, but you need to hear them cine. gabe, wasnt MEANT for you. let him go. it is part of life..love is one of life's many hardships. we need to learn to deal with obstacles such as this. they make us the better people we become and are. pleease remember that.
in a feew days, weeks, months, years. you will be thankful that this has happened. you can not see why now, obviously, because the pain you feel is blinding you from the positivity ahead. just know that you dont have to always rely on the drink. i cant tell you what to do, and i know that YOU know drinking is wrong and does nothing..all i can say is that..Im here for you Cine. I love you :) And I know things will get better, even if you dont believe.
I didn't read the whole thing, but this made me cry. Which lately, that's very hard to do. The same thing happened to me. My boyfriend of almost a year, my fiance' as well, left me because of my stupidity. I cheated on him and now he won't even talk to me at all. I'm so sorry. <3
In all honesty, you're 14 years old. You have your whole life ahead of you. This is just a bump in the road and there's going to be plenty more of them.
I'm not saying it doesn't suck, cause breakups are never easy, and you should have a time of being upset, you're totally allowed it (I just don't think drinking is the right way to go about it). But just realise you have so much more ahead of you, your life is really only just beginning.
Honestly, nothing could've prevented this from happening. People fall in and out of love all the time. It's almost inevitable.
I think you should stop drinking and deal with your emotions, once and for all. I know this for a fact - drinking does not help. Not at all. It just puts off being hurt, when it's going to happen anyway.
You need to look at the people who have been through what you have. See that they're okay. It'll give you confidence, you know. It'll let you know, - maybe not today - that you'll be okay in the end.
When all turns sour, turn to positivity. In the darkest of situations, it's the only white light you can see.
[I would never tell you to shut up your feelings. Although, I do think you should move on, that's not going to happen by 'sucking it up'.]