Ever consider maybe a journal, or something to keep your thoughts and feelings in order? Maybe listing three things a day that made you smile, or that you enjoyed just in general too? I guess things are thrown at us for a reason, and its just a matter to figuring out how to work through them?
i honestly dont have any advice for you =[ sorry. but maybe you wouldnt feel so bad if you didnt worry about things so much, but like you said, you have a problem with anxiety. maybe you can see a doctor about your anxiety, and hopefully get some pills, or something to prevent so much stress. I used to have anxiety attacks, i didnt see a doctor for it though, i just learned to let things... be. in other words, i became careless, usually thats not good, but in your case.... i think you deserve a nice long vacation. :)
at least you've said it, and that alone should get it off your chest you know?
and you KNOW i love you no matter what, (that's just the way this whole 'wifey' thing works), so i'm glad you let me know this was here to read.
-elizabeth (loves her wifey very very very much).