This journal is a little depressing. (But help me out anyway?) - Comments

v Hey, if that's the way you go, that's the way you go.

I have my life planned up to, like...next week...

I know how you feel my lifes planned up to 35 right now & everyone expects me to live up to it, I expect myself to to.

I'm also the smartest so the only way my family can be rich is for me to get them there @.@ XD.

v I've been taught to always have goals. It's just...something I do. I have most of my life planned out, as far as I can see (which is about 29).

It's hard, though. I have all these expectations put on me from everyone and I have to be excellent and good in everyones' eyes. I'm the "smart" one, I have to go somewhere and do something. I have to be great. I know being an English teacher in France is pretty, and right now I'm shit scared about it, but mum won't let me be a counsellor-type-thing.

And also: shush, you! Your writing is amazing. It'll pan out, I know it.

At least you have goals! Going to France to teach English? Even if it's only a "well, that might happen" thought, that's more than a lot of people have. Hell if I know what I'm going to do with my life if this writing thing doesn't pan out, you know?

And, I know you'll hate hearing this, but you don't need to find someone to love at fifteen. Be happy still technically being a kid. I miss those years, myself. So will you, when you're older. No need to attach yourself to another person so early in life, yet.

v Thanks. :) I'm not sure of the exact quote, but it's from "P.S. I Love You" and it's something that means a lot to me

I kinda know how you feel since the only sister that's close to my age is three years older with her own kid & we don't talk. I'm really different then my whole family too. I used to feel alone but I still had family. I liked that last quote.

I know what it is like to feel totally alone, and it is a sucky feeling.
Nothing compares to it. It's like you ache in places you didn't realise you could ache in.
I just hope yo know that there is no shame in feeling that way, you are my friend and I will always be here to throw you a lifeline if you should need it.

Don't forget, all you ever have to do is ask.
Love you.