Well this is....odd? - Comments

You might also look into the point of view of the agnostics. An agnostic accepts that there is "something out there" - but that whatever it is is beyond our ability to understand.

I’m an Atheist and, well, I still am but I can see how you would be feeling odd. I would feel so wired, being an Atheist for as long as I have, and to just be borderline one day... I would be frightened for sure. I have once came close to following one religion and then I don’t know I realized the truth? And I came back to being and Atheist. I can see why you might be borderline with believing in a deity and being athirst though. I don’t know what to say only that I hope you find something you can believe in, and hold on to whatever it might be. I think I’m saying this wrong but yeah just go for what you think is the right answer. You don’t have to be labeled you know. You can believe in anything even if it’s made up, and not an official religion.