While this isn't the best of situations, I don't think you are wholly to blame, so don't beat yourself up. Self-loathing never helps even when you are in the wrong.
Yes, you made him feel bad, but this guy also had an equal hand in the whole umming and ahhing business. It's unfortunate that this wound up the way it did, but it's also better that you dumped him at the beginning rather than stringing him along and then breaking his heart after, say, six months.
If it were me, I'd stay away from him for a bit. Or you could make a mutual pact to be just friends for a certain amount of time and nothing more. No flirting, no grey-zones, just being civil and friendly. See how you feel about it after four weeks, for a ball park figure. If you really want each other, you can wait that long, and it'll be worth it to have a relationship where you aren't tearing one another to shreds.
I hope writing this out also helped. Venting is great like that. Watch the swear words, though. Although I don't find them offensive, I'm not sure how strict the Mibba language policy is. Just a heads up.
Yes, you made him feel bad, but this guy also had an equal hand in the whole umming and ahhing business. It's unfortunate that this wound up the way it did, but it's also better that you dumped him at the beginning rather than stringing him along and then breaking his heart after, say, six months.
If it were me, I'd stay away from him for a bit. Or you could make a mutual pact to be just friends for a certain amount of time and nothing more. No flirting, no grey-zones, just being civil and friendly. See how you feel about it after four weeks, for a ball park figure. If you really want each other, you can wait that long, and it'll be worth it to have a relationship where you aren't tearing one another to shreds.
I hope writing this out also helped. Venting is great like that. Watch the swear words, though. Although I don't find them offensive, I'm not sure how strict the Mibba language policy is. Just a heads up.