Why am I like this? - Comments

v. I think I have sad depression.I wasn't always like this.

v. some people are. I am. It's a chemical imbalance in the brain, it just means that some hormones didn't pan out right. It can be treated with medication, but it's a bit tougher to treat than just...sad depression.

v. You are not born with depression!

You are indeed depressed. And in a way, it's not something you can stop, because you are born with it. Depression is a chemical imbalance in the brain.

I really hope life gets better for you though. Even if only a little. Try looking on the bright side of things, even if it's buried deep, below the dirt and grime.

Yes, I'd say you are depressed. Because I, myself, am depressed to a certain point. I know it's hard talking to your mother about stuff like that, because mine does the same thing. She buys things she doesn't need. When I got home today, there was a letter in our door from our apartment land-lord people saying we were to be evicted soon if rent wasn't paid. We would be able to pay the rent if she wouldn't waste money.

For your friends, if they are mad or annoyed over not being able to come to your house, they aren't your friend.

Invisibility is normal for me. I'm quiet all of the time and I hardly say a word. I feel like I'm an outside spectator who cannot be seen by others 90% of my life. I'm starting to do better about talking to people, and I will say, it takes time and it's really hard to do.

Withdraw issues.. understandable. I suffer from the same. Force yourself to go outside and do things. That's about the only way I know of to get over it. It's how I'm getting over it.

You do seem very depressed, and, as silk tea. says, I'm not medically trained to diagnose you, but, I'm depressed and suffer from basically the same things you do.

If you ever want to talk, feel free to come to me.

Yes. Depression has nothing to do with your ability to smile or laugh, it's the fact that you feel empty inside. The issues with your mom is something you need to address otherwise it'll absolutely never get fixed. And honestly, if your friends are getting mad about you not letting them into your house then they're not your friend. The invisibility thing is unavoidable. There are a lot of people out there who won't talk unless talked to, it takes time but you've got to take initiative if you want that feeling to go away. And the withdrawn...well, that's something you've got to force yourself to get over as well. It's a work in progress, but eventually it'll be okay. As long as you make yourself do what you know your depression is making you do.

Now, I'm not a doctor, so I could be wrong. But I myself suffer from chronic depression and your symptoms are quite similar to mine.