September 22nd, 2013 at 02:37am
I weight lift 30 minutes a day 6x a week. Everyone keeps saying I look smaller, but I don't see it. I'm thinking it's all in my head, but then sometimes I don't, and that's pretty much what's driving me insane.
- blades:
- In terms of being nearly underweight and feeling like you're bigger than you were before, perhaps you should try doing more strength training to gain lean muscle. I've seen before and afters on my ana recovery sites that are HUGE differences when girls add more strength training - the muscle just helps you look leaner and more toned. I think you're beautiful but obviously the mental health part is difficult to get under control.
I've always had poor self confidence and esteem but I'm doing a lot better now. I realized that my issues come from some of my family members acting like anything I ever did wasn't good enough. Trying so hard to get the basic approval from a family member just to have them regard you negatively all the time will get to you emotionally more than you realize overtime. That plus the whole media and stereo typing of the weight a woman is "supposed" to be and their idea of beauty for women. All that stuff can get a person down.
I'm sure that doesn't help but hang in there. Don't stop trying because if you believe in yourself even though you don't see the results and change in yourself right away, with time you can learn to see it better and start to believe.