I Never Feel Like Writing Anymore - Comments

I go through this every single day, like I WANT to write I just don't feel like it. Sometimes I go through little bouts where I will consistently update every other day (like just last month) but then something will just change and I won't feel like doing anything at all. I have all my current stories on my desktop and they fill almost 2 whole rows because I start things that I eventually run out of muse for or just lose complete and utter interest.

Maybe that's the problem; maybe I just have so many ideas that I can't sit and focus on just one, and therefore lose interest quicker than usual? This is probably the most accurate assumption for both of us though.

I go through this every single day, like I WANT to write I just don't feel like it. Sometimes I go through little bouts where I will consistently update every other day (like just last month) but then something will just change and I won't feel like doing anything at all. I have all my current stories on my desktop and they fill almost 2 whole rows because I start things that I eventually run out of muse for or just lose complete and utter interest.

"Maybe that's the problem; maybe I just have so many ideas that I can't sit and focus on just one, and therefore lose interest quicker than usual?" This is probably the most accurate assumption for both of us though.

For me, it was the opposite way around. I felt weird when I wrote my first Jalex. I was like, Why am I even writing this? This is so fucked up! But if you look through my subscriptions, you'll find mainly Jalex and Kellic. Which is so weird. I can read it. I just feel awkward writing it. Writing, in general, is always going to be the biggest pain in a writer's ass. I can almost assure you that (not to be a total dick about it, lol). It's just about finding the time, finding your muse, and running with it. I know you're struggling with your muse, but it will come to you. For me, I have to go out into the real world (like, ick; the real world has stupid people) and just enjoy the outdoors. It's so bad when I lose my muse.

@ Don'tFearTheReaper
omg no i feel weird not writing ships. OF stuff isn't for me. even my OF stuff starts out as ships, and then the names get changed bless the 'replace' button in word. ugh, i'm so bad with change. it's like. ugh. why is writing so hard?? it doesn't make sense, like literally i could write as much OF stuff as i wanted but it doesn't sound like it comes out as good as my jalex's. which, idk, doesn't make sense at all seeing as how it's literally just a name-change. like, how does that even work out?? my merrigreuter's are at a different level than my jalex's, and all i do is replace the people. writing makes no sense, man, i'm tellin ya.

I'm just thinking if it's something not Jalex-y or Merrigreuter-y. But something that is just you. I have a few stories that I would never allow Mibba to read. So maybe that could be something you do. It doesn't sound bad; let your friend read them. Perhaps he will be able to give you some help to move away from the this has to be for Mibba mindset. I have the issue of doing the same, "Maybe I'll get a headstart" sort of thing. And it sucks. I just want to have one or two chapters to tide me over for at least a little bit. I feel your pain hon.

@ Don'tFearTheReaper
i have this like issue where as soon as i write something, it gets posted. even if i tell myself "y'know, i just updated yesterday, i'll save this one for a few days so that i have a sort of head start" and then ten minutes later it's being posted. idk how great it would work for me. i may try it and just have a few people i actually know read it. i have a friend who doesn't have an account here but always shows interest in reading my things. i'll have to utilize him... which sounds a little worse than i meant it to sound, but you know what i mean.

@ kit walker.
i try and tell myself that i don't write for other people (unless it's, like, a request or something because then, y'know, i obvi am writing for them), but i think a little subconscious part of me does. i don't worry too much about people missing me, tho. with that lil depression stint over the summer, i left mibba completely for two or three months and came back to crickets chirping no, i'm kidding, there weren't even crickets. the only people who noticed or seemed to care that i disappeared were two of my friends. i'm pretty sure i've never actually had anyone ask me when i'd update again, no matter how long i've left a fic. i don't know, i don't worry about people leaving too much (bc then they're just missing out on my awesome updates, and that's their loss), but i have this thing for deadlines. like, maybe it's bc of school or something like that, but i've started to work so that i don't finish something all at once, but if i don't get lil pieces of the whole picture done in a timely manner then i panic bc i know that i'm running out of time. i think it's kinda transitioned over into everything else now. it's a hard habit to break after having functioned that way since, like, third grade. it's like i'm already running out of time (even tho i have as much as i want) and it's all starting to climb on top of each other to get my attention. but i do the combining thing a lot; just did it not too long ago for one of my one-shots. wasn't the best thing i've ever written by any means, but it was nice to be able to cross two things off at once.

That is me almost all the time when I get comments on old fics I haven't updated in months (or even a year) . Usually I try to at least get an idea of what to write and a amount of where I think, "Alright, it seems okay and not too short". In fact, I probably do that with more than twenty fics and a few others that are coming soon. Over the past month, I learned to not write when I feel like I should or because people want me to. I get it, when someone comments on a fic you haven't updated in a month or more and remind you that it's still your unfinished business, but I suggest that you don't write. Not in general I mean. What I'm implying at is don't update because you have this need to update because your readers want you to. Update when you feel like it, after all; you're in charge of the story, not them.

For example, I have a like five to ten fics readers like to remind me to update because it rarely ever is. I'm the type to update from every few days to every few months. But when it came to this story that has a lot of readers, subscribers, and recommendations, and someone just comments like "You never update this anymore!", "When are you gonna write it again?", "Are you abandoning this like your other ones? I tend to have the sudden urge to write, I feel this strange need to satisfy my readers and give them what they want. A few months after hearing it over and over again, I came to my conclusion which is this:

Don't update whether you feel like you really have to just because your readers want you or because you feel like you have to for abandoning it for so long. Write when you feel like it, not because someone else feels like you really should. If an idea for an update or for story in general comes into your head, take advantage of that idea. Maybe it'll be your inspiration to write? Don't write a chapter and feel like you have to finish it, whether it's half done or even needs just one more paragraph. Just save it and come back to it when you feel like writing, you could also go back and change it up too. Or if you want to update something cause you do feel like writing but just no ideas, rewriting it is always a good option. Plus ideas for one shot that you haven't written can also be used to make a good chapter in fics. That's what I've done occasionally and half the time it gets good feedback.

Don't wear yourself down, dude. Take a break, don't sweat about having to write all the time. Do it for yourself, not because think you should. Don't feel bad about it, most people get it if you're lacking the motivation to write. Happens to a lot of us, including me of course. It's okay to not want to write, sometimes that feeling just passes by. You're writing mojo will come back, it always does.

It's understandable, hon. I'm not telling you that you have to give up completely. But it's okay if you have to take a step or two back. Would it help to take a breather? Slow down the constant influx of worry? Because I'm sure subscribers and readers would understand.
For me, it's always something in the middle; work on something just for myself, having no plans to put it online. It helps me get out ideas I may have that go along with nothing I'm writing to post here.

@ Shayney92
god speed, mon ami

@ Don'tFearTheReaper
i can't just quit, tho. like, that'd feel like me deciding not to write merrigreuter anymore bc only a few people read it compared to my jalex's. i'm too stubborn to give up my ideas, and i'm too stubborn to quit. i mean, if this was something irl (like school, for example), i'd deffs say "nope done w this, just gonna sit back and wait until the end of the semester and everything's all said and done" (which i actually did for all but one of my classes this semester tbh). i don't know, i mean, i feel like everyone else would be okay w me stopping a some of my things, and i can always just scrap the one-shot ideas that i have pilin up, but i feel like this is the only thing i have anymore, and i'm not ready to just give up on any of them.

I have some really strange days when I go into my story page(s), look things over, and then think it would be great to delete them from the site. I don't know why. Recently, my main story, my baby, seems to be a chore. But not necessarily for the same reason. I feel like no one's reading or cares about it like I do (I just want to know if the readers like the story).
I think it's natural to go through these lulls in between inspiration for stories. And yes, it really sucks when it feels like a chore. But I think if you're not feeling a story, that's okay. And it's even okay if you can't finish it. I've been guilty of that more than once. Don't worry. I'm sure your friends and subscribers on here will understand.

feeling that too. I have so many WIP's I just feel like quitting... But I'm really just going to push until I finished a story. Maybe that'll give me much needed closure which may help me finish more easier.