Enjoy Your Misery - Comments

Don't let him step all over you. You're right, you do desere to be happy. You have the control to kick him out of your life. If he doesn't treat you like he loves you, get him out of your life. You're hurt and you forgave him, yet he treats you badly? Do it for yourself. If he doesn't care about your emotions, don't care about his, focus on your own. If you're questioning whether he's even worth it, there's a good chance he's not.

I know it's strange to think, but never regret anything. Learn from your past, learn from every awful experience and every single thing you'd like to regret. Never let people emotionally destory you. Sure, you could "kill them with kindness", but in this case it sounds like you've settled. If being happy requires him out of your life, then kick him out of your life. You have the courage, deep down inside, you have it.

As for the college aspect, I don't know your circumstances but whatever's preventing you should also be kicked out of your life. Of course, unless, you're a single parent or have a family member to take care of, etc. Have you considered night schooling? It would be hard, but I'm sure it would be worth it if you want it badly.

Obviously I don't know you, but I doubt you're a bad person. Your actions don't define you.

If your relationship is sour, you really should get out of it. There is nothing worse than holding on to something that isn't good for you.

Just breathe. Everything will work out.
If you ever want to talk, I'm always willing to listen. I hope you're having a better day now, but if not, just breathe.