Day 1 + Day 2 of Blogging Challenge - Comments

For me it really helped with the anxiety, it didn't do much for the depression. I'm not sure what it does, exactly. It... well, it really just kept me more mellow and from just running away with my emotions (as anxiety tends to do, you know). The pill also had a huge effect on it.

Yeah, it's not. I feel like sometimes my boyfriend is helping, but then other times I think I'm becoming too codependent on him and there is literally no in-between right now.

Maybe just keep your options open for now? You may find a field or something you love once you start classes. And really? What about bigger law firms or something like that?

@ alexander bernadotte
seriously though!! I hate the people that feel the need to say its not a big deal. well you don't know what it's like so shut up. I can't stand people as it is. LOL. like I was driving last night for the first time in forever, and when I got home I had such bad anxiety that I was shaking. It's a miracle I didn't take anything. All because a dude passed me and screamed fuck you! lmao I struggle to see at night while driving so I was doing the speed limit. but anxiety is no joke for sure.

and thank youu! I'm really excited. I want a job where I stay busy constantly. At my internship I literally sit here and i'm on mibba LOL. I want something to keep me busy. and I never thought of a legal dictionary, that's a wonderful idea!! and that sounds like it was nuts! but at least you werent alone.

@ padme;
I've never heard of lexapro. What does that do? I'm trying to get on Ativan/lorazapam but the therapist hasn't called me yet so that's currently on hold. Doctors are frustrating. and I never thought of that trick. I'll have to try it for sure.

Seriously, I feel you on that. The anxiety struggles to keep me from being happy at times. I'm damn well trying, but its not easy!

and yes! I'm super excited. I've been doing some research online, but I've also thought about just getting a degree in Criminal Justice and being happy with that? my head is spinning in like several directions lmao. But yes that's exactly what it is! i'm hoping I can find some sort of reception job at a paralegal firm but it's so hard. they are like never hiring!

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I struggle with anxiety too. Well, anxiety and depression. Woot! My general practitioner is the one who's always prescribed my meds, if that helps. Lexapro helped with my anxiety, at least for awhile. Well, Lexapro and the pill. I saw this thing once that helps with anxiety attacks, I made my sister do this and it seemed to help (mostly because she would start laughing). It's like... list five things you can see, four things you can hear, three things you can touch, two things you can smell, and one thing you can taste. (Or do the senses in any order, just make sure it's still 5-4-3-2-1.)

I find that the staying happy and anxiety & depression are directly linked. It's the anxiety & depression keeping me from being happy, you know? Once that gets solved I feel like I can, you know, finally be happy and stay happy. And conquer the world.

And a lawyer?! That's great! I wish you all the best. And yeah, starting out as a receptionist is probably the best way to get your foot in the door! When I was in college my advisor always said something like it's not what you can do that gets you your job, but who you know. Starting out in reception is good way to make some of those connections! Or being a paralegal, but that's a ways away I believe. Any idea what you're going specialize in?

i have both anxiety and depression and it screws up my life more often than i care to count; i totally understand where you're coming from. it's easy for people who don't deal with these issues to give advice and it's honestly so annoying. :| if you need someone to rant to, you can totally message me. <3

as for law school, best of luck in your endeavor! it's a tough road, but you can do it! after my dad died, i put together all of the law paperwork for his case and it was SUCH a nightmare; thank god i had our lawyer's help with all of the legalese. he calls me an unlicensed paralegal, lol. i found that it was helpful to look up or even buy a legal dictionary to get acquainted with all of the fancy-schmancy legal jargon (i'm a nursing student so law isn't my thing, lmao). perhaps consider starting there? but getting a job at an actual law firm might help as well, as you plan!

you can absolutely do everything and anything you're planning on doing -- baby steps!! :D

@ VixL
It just seems like that anyone without anxiety doesn't understand it, at all. Like most people are like oh you'll get through it, oh suck it up like you don't just suck it up. It's hard and i'm trying to get a damn therapist so i can get meds.

and I'm so hoping to have a book done by the end of this year but coming up with ideas is hard, and managing to stick with the story is hard. but i'm gonna give it a try.

yes! I actually take the Safety Courses for it in February so i'm super pumped! It's just something I feel like I need to have especially with all the nutbags in the world.

dude yes! It's just hard sometimes. like especially after an argument with my boyfriend (which are quite nasty) i'm like wondering if i'm even happy with him. Deep down I am, the fights just take a toll on me.

Thank you! different from the abusive relationship I was in before meeting him.

yess, i cannot stand the cold. my boyfriend always wants to go in the woods and have a fire and i'm like TOO COLD.

and I sure hope so! I'm going to aim to be back in school by fall of 2019! I'm gonna do online classes too since I focus so much better.

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I have anxiety and I can’t control it. Some days it seems to happen out of nowhere and there’s really nothing I can do about it.

Omg I totally feel you accept mine is depression and anxiety!

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I want to write a book and have it published by the end of 2019.

Same! But I’m probably going to just shoot for the first draft version. Hopefully I’ll get published one day, though. Hopefully we both do!

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I want to get my license to carry this year.

That’s such an interesting fact! I’m admiring you in a Angelina Jolie/Black Widow way!

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I struggle a lot with staying happy.

Are we twins??? Jk I just relate to this one too!

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I’ve been with my boyfriend since June and he’s been the best thing to happen to me.

Congratulations!!

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I hate the snow and the cold

No, but seriously are we twins?? Because mostly everyone I know is like, “I can’t wait for it to snow” or “I love it when it snows” and I’m just !

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Day 2: Where you’d like to be in 10 years:

I want to be a successful Lawyer with my own firm. It’s going to be a lot of work, but this is something that I want. I have thought a lot about my future but I’m for sure going to be a lawyer. My goal this year is to get my act together and go back to college. It takes like 8 years to get a law degree so i’m going to start now! I hope that in the meantime I can get a job as a receptionist at a law firm or something. I think that would be a good start to knowing what I will be doing someday! I got this!

You can do it!! <3