I Miss Me More. - Comments

Well, when it comes to your dad I'd ask yourself if the reason you stopped talking is still a reason. Maybe time has changed things for him too? A lot can change in seven years... but, my boyfriend has this thing he says all the time: "We men never change. We always stay the same." So maybe nothing has changed. My point is, if you just reach out to him, the worst thing that could happen is you realize you don't want him in your life anymore, the best is that he is in your life again. But I agree with Victoria, if you're honestly thinking of moving out to Utah to be with your dad, I'd wait until you've either talked to him at least a few times and/or have something figured out for when you get there. Don't just do it after one conversation, even if it's a good one. Plus, it takes money to move across the country. Unless your dad can give you a loan, but I have a sneaking suspicion that he may hold it over your head until you pay him back. So, that's up to you. But I'd weigh the pros and cons.

As for getting a job, the first quarter of the year is normally when people are cutting hours instead of adding them. (At least in retail, I'm not sure how everything else operates, but the first quarter is typically when they slash hours in half from the fourth quarter. I've been lucky to get the hours I have, but I'm sure February and March will be brutal.) So that may be why you haven't heard anything from anyone. Keep putting your name out there - even if it's fast food or retail. You may get lucky. Some places are hiring - if they're desperate enough. And even if they aren't hiring right now, if they start in the next couple weeks your resume will already be in the system. Joanns called me a month after I sent them my resume, so you never know. (But you may not be able to wait that long.) I was going to say if you had a car, you could try Lyft/Uber/Door Dash/Postmates/etc. etc. There's also Wag, or something like that. It's basically a dog walking service. The pay is REALLY good, if you can get it. You just have to take a test, I think? Maybe there's a background check, but I honestly can't remember. The test is basically what do you do if you come across another dog, the different types of collars/harness and how to put them on properly. (Before you respond, there are WAY more than you think.) If you don't pass it the first time they have YouTube videos you can watch, I honestly found a combination of the videos and Google to be way more helpful, you can retake it. You don't technically need a car to do it, you can just do your neighborhood so you can walk there, but a car would probably be helpful. It could still not be much, but it's better than nothing.

You're probably right about the anxiety. With everything that's been going on, you're probably just stressed. Your boyfriend probably is too, especially if you're together basically 24/7. Give it time, it'll work out. But don't just let him treat your horribly, tell him when he's crossed the line. He may also be stressed and have high anxiety levels, but that doesn't mean he call make you feel miserable. Also, this:



Whoops, that was much longer than I intended it to be. But I'll leave it there. PM me if you need to.

@ wolverine;
Thanks Hina! Love you! I'm going to send you a pm in a bit. It sounds like a good idea to me too espically since im unhappy here but there's just so much to think about. + after not talking to my dad for seven years, im not too sure if i want to talk to him at alll. I kind of hope this is just an anxiety thing and will go away.

@ nearly witches.
Yeah defineltly! I never thought about the pros and cons before but thats a good idea for sure! I just am unsure if it will be a good idea in the long run. I will not know anyone if I move and I struggle to make friends as it is. and Im probably going to. he just overreacts about everything so I tend to just keep quiet. Im honestly hoping it's just my anxiety acting up. but who knows anymore. and thank you, you're the best!

@ raja sahara
and seriously! LOL. he can be a major dick but he's been decent today so I'm not sure. I think my anxiety is just stressing me out. I really like being with him but sometimes it's just frustrating. I think being together 247 is what makes it challenging for sure. If I was working, I think it would be a different story. and that's always a good plan too. a job would defiantly make it easier. I'm taking a few days to think about it since it might just be anxiety going into overdrive. I don't want to do anything I'll regret.

I agree with Vic about, well, everything lol. Talk to your boyfriend so you can decide for sure what you want to do about your relationship in particular. But honestly speaking from a 3rd party perspective, he sounds like a dick and you should drop him. But I also don't know details of your relationship lol.

As for moving, I feel ya about wanting to do so. I've been wanting to get out of here for awhile but the main reason why I haven't yet is because I want a job there before I go. And to be 100% honest, it's hard to find a job out of your resident state so it's a damn catch-22. It's a difficult decision so really think about it!

But I hope things work out for you!

I agree with the concept of really thinking things through before you move. It's a massive change, especially if it's far from where you are just now! I have no idea about US geography so my apologies if it isn't. Weigh up the pros and cons -- it's a new start, but will you know a lot of people around? Are the job prospects there better? Major pro is that there's no major language barrier and it gives you a totally fresh start and if you're not working, you've not got a whole bunch to tie you down to one place, but it's a lot to think about. Is it maybe worth writing out a list of what would be good and what would be bad? I'm currently in the process of working out a move to another country and that's what I did when I first started thinking about it, and I managed to negate all of the cons by outweighing them with the pros.

And if it's worth it, try and talk to your boyfriend about how you're feeling. At worst, it'll put you in the mindset that he's not worth being tied down for and honestly if you are miserable, you need to look after yourself first. Don't let people make you miserable - you're worth so much more than that

I'm sorry you been feeling like that. I think maybe moving away from your boyfriend would be a good thing for you. It'd help you get back on track to being happy. I'm always here if you need to talk Love ya brit.