I know how you feel, and that's okay!! Rejection can be tough to deal with, and maybe in some way it was for the better? I got rejected by uni last year, and I thought it was everything I wanted. Now, I'm in a completely different field, I just got offered a full time position (which is rare for my field of work) and everything is working out more than fine! Just give it time. I know it can be disappointing at the start.