I have a lot of the same thing. My Mum still misses her Dad and you can tell. Both my grandad's died of a stroke. And I bottle everything up, the times when I feel most depressed and alone are times when everyone else thinks I'm fine. But I get through it.
It's hard to grasp when someone dies, heck I'm still not sure I've accepted that some people are never coming back, but you get used to it. Sometimes you remember things, just odd, normal things, but they make you smile. When you can do that I think it stops being so bad.
I hope you and your family are Ok, you have everyone else, and just small gestures can really help. Everyone will feel better, and without forgetting. I've seen the whole process. Twice.
It's hard to grasp when someone dies, heck I'm still not sure I've accepted that some people are never coming back, but you get used to it. Sometimes you remember things, just odd, normal things, but they make you smile. When you can do that I think it stops being so bad.
I hope you and your family are Ok, you have everyone else, and just small gestures can really help. Everyone will feel better, and without forgetting. I've seen the whole process. Twice.