Why are people online such assholes?

Two days ago I signed up for a website, Darkstarlings.com. It's supposed to be a "goth"

website, so I thought, 'cool, maybe I'll make some new friends there." I don't like to label myself,

but I would have to say that I was closest to goth.

I happily registered for an account and went on the forums, trying to see who liked some of the

same bands that I like, and I started a topic for the glam goth rock band, Malice In

Wonderland, and I included their video for Lucifer's Town.

I was expecting people to like the band, but all I received were negative comments. I didn't

mind that people did not like the band, because everyone likes different music and everyone

has the right to their opinion. However, some people were taking it too far. They were saying

something along the lines of:

>The band is shit
>They are posers trying to bring back glam rock
>The lead singer looks gay [but it says on his myspace that he is straight!]
>Some bitch even went so far to say "I don't listen to female vocalists"
>Other people were saying, "don't cry over it, the band is shitty anyways"

I felt like every freaking person on that website was attacking me. Does that seem right to

you? I understand if people say "No, sorry,I don't like them" But they were all very cruel and

rude and it was so bad that I deleted my account. I wasn't going to deal with being

harassed for the music I listen to. I'm almost in tears now, actually. And I don't want people

to pity me, but they don't know my situation. They don't know that I'm already very suicidal

and you reading this might think, "oh, another suicidal emo kid whining over a stupid little

thing." But it's not like that. It's a medical condition, depression and bipolar disorder, and it's

been in my family for hundreds of years. My mom and sister both suffer from it, and they

have both been in the psych ward many times. My home life is so dysfuntcional, I use the

internet as a way to get away from all of the craziness, so I don't end up a failure like my

mom [because of her illness she has been on disability for 18 years] , but with such

assholes on the internet who have to mock other people to entertain themselves, I feel

myself going crazier and crazier. I can't deal with it. Where are the people in the world who

don't judge, and are kind to everyone? The ones who won't treat a person like shit for

liking a band, and understand that everyone has their own taste in music? I know that those

kinds of people are out there, but where? It seems that all I find are the assholes with no

lives that try to bring me down. It makes me wonder if going on the internet is even worth it...