WooT!!

Here we go again. A tragic story. (thats a tad dramatic) And I know how it'll end...
(Not so Tragic I guess)

JULY 31 2008

Me liking this person is seriously starting to screw up my head. Every since day one, when I first saw him at uniform fittings, (lame, I know...) he's been in my head, and I haven't been able to think straight. It's driving me nuts. {He's driving me crazy.}

Yeah, That's how it is..

I dont think he knows I like him.
I mean, he should. Im always staring at him.
And I never look away until he looks at me . Because I'm scared that if he sees me, he'll know I like him.
(again, as if it weren't obvious)

The worst part, is that every time this happens to me, the person finds out i like them, and then chances are, I have no chance...
But for some reason... this seems different.
I'm only 14, I'm only a freshman. I know its no different..
Sooner or later, someone else will strike my eye.
But y'know what? That happened yet.
There's 2 other guys at marching band, that started out just as strong as him, but I've shut them out. Now it's just him.
And I'm scared about it. I know he doesnt like me. ( I mean, C'mon!)
But Im just not backing away for some reason.

The worst part, is that two of my friends have told me he's a jerk, but Im just so optimistic. I'm telling myself he's changed. Well, if he hasn't, then I'll learn from my own mistakes. If he has, good call.

(Wanna know what's sad? I've never talked to him before. As much as I'd like too, I'm too much of a wuss when it comes to this kinda thing)

((What's sadder? I'm talking like I've got chances... I'm not good enough))

Haha.. I remember one day, I was just fixated on him, and My section leader told us something, and noticed i was in a whole 'nother world. She asked me a question about what she said, and I got it wrong. XD good times...

August 9th 2008

So why's it still bothering me??

September 11th 2008

He wasnt here today.
It made me sadder then it should have...
But yeah...
He had a gf for about two weeks, then they broke up, hopefully I'll know why tomorrow..
I realllllly wish I had a chance. He's kewlio! (from what I know and stuff)
(and hes funney! ((Which is THE SHIZ!!)))
But yeah.. Im very shy, but this time I am trying the best I can to talk to him..
Like at the football game, his hair had to be put up. (the person who did it for him sucked)
then we were on the sidelines, getting ready to march, and me and Katie are all , "_____! ....______!" then looked at us, and we're all "Tuck your hair behind your ears, it'll make it easier! Trust us!"
And he did, then I was all "Beautiful!" and he looked at me and chuckled ^.^!!

And on Monday (I think) his dad was waiting for him after practice, and I was wondering where he was, then he walked over, and on his way I passed him then I blurted out "What kinda dog is that?" cause there was a dog back there in the truck.
I forgot what kind it was, cause I was proud of myself for acutally asking him myself.
=D
Hopefully he'll be here tomorrow.....

So yeah, just random update.. ^.^

September 13 2008 11:30 ish AM

I have "hero/Heroine" in my head >.>
tonight we have another home game. I cannot wait ^.^
(Can you guess why??)
:]

You caught me off Gaurd
Now Im Runnin' and Screamin'...

September 13 2008 11:26 PM

Who the fuck am I kidding?? I know I have no chance
>.>

September 16, 2008

He has a gf
he knows I like him.
I couldnt nbe happier.
:]
i lied,
I could be.
If when him and his gf break up.
I ask him out.
Anyways!
Now that he knows who I am and that I like him, Im eager to see
what will happen. : ]

september 24, 2008 6:56am

YAY!
I dont like him anymore.
as a matter of fact i stopped liking him at 4th quarter during the football game on the 19th
=D!!!!
I like someone else now. Yes, he's in drumline too. But he's aweshumer, and I dont know why, but he just killed Chris Beasley. I dont like Chris anymore, I'd choose Gushy over him anyday. ^.^ I dunno why though... But yeah =D
XD
They call him Gushy cause last year he was fat. XD Not this year though, not this year.. :]

... LMAO!