of being my own prisoner.
of not being good enough for myself.
of making myself so tired i can hardly stay awake.
of feeling like everything is too much.
of feeling so self conciece i cant think of anything else.
of hiding my problems.
of treating everything as if its second important.
of numbing myself so i dont feel anything.
but i cant stop
and i dont know how to.
i feel like im dead on he inside and waiting for my body to slowly fail too.
ok i havnt done that in like for ever.
its wierd writing all that