worst days of my life

This month has just been horrible for me.
Yesterday i cried more than i have ever cried im pretty sure.
I was talking to my ex.
He still likes me and wants me to be his girlfriend.
I miss him, and i loved being his girlfriend.
But when he broke up with me, he hurt me soooo bad.
Its just hard to see him the same and forgive him.
So yesterday he randomly called me.
And he asked me why i dont want to be with him.
Which just made me start crying.
Then he started crying.
Which made me cry even more.
I just feel so bad, cus i can tell he really does care about me.
I mean obviously, what guy have you ever heard/seen cry over you?
We were both just crying over the phone for two hours
Having the deepest conversation we've ever had together.
Then today i come home to my mom yelling and screaming at me
Telling me how broke we are and how i dont understand what shes going through.
And guess what i end up doing?
Crying. Again.
Was two hours last night not enough?
I mean i ended up going to sleep at 3 in the morning and i couldnt fucking stay awake during school and right when i get home thats what i get?
I dont even feel safe in my own home anymore.
I always want to be alone nowadays
but how am i suposed to do that if i dont even want to go home?
I've never had so much money, family, boy, and other problems in my life.
And now im having them all at the same time.
I just cant take it.
I dont know what to do.