Big Giant Nothing

Why do i feel empty inside?
Like nothing's worth smiling.

Not wanting to sound self-centered, i guess you could say I do friends very easily and most of the people in my school worship me- but i don't even know why.
Why would someone worship me? I don´t think i'm that funny, that nice or for the matter, that pretty.
But still they come and talk and invite me to stuff, but I don't really care about all that. I try to smile and be polite, but inside i have this giant huge hole in my chest, it just makes me want to scream.
Sometimes I can be really happy and jumping around and in the next moment BAM!
The world seems darker and deeper.
People seem fake.
Laughs seem fake.
Love seem fake.

How can someone live like that?

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