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Very down this evening, been thinking about some of my friends that have passed away. Normally I feel completely fine with it and stuff but tonight I just feel like rubbish.

I don't even want to write anything to any of my stories, I don't want to eat, I don't want to sleep .. I don't even know if I want to cry =S

I feel kind of isolated seen as my best friend and me don't hang out so much because we're both busy, my friend jamie is away to university and has apparently forgotten about the people who were his friends before he found all these new ones, a lot of my other friends are moving on to do different things and I can't help feeling like I'm on my own now.

I don't feel in control of myself at all tonight.. I would happily curl up in a ball and be empty... in actual fact that is practically what I'm doing right now.

What the hell am I doing?! =\