Whats Wrong With My Tounge

theres so much that i wan to say but i can't. i want to cry to them and give them the biggest hug i can muster but i can't. i won't. they are just dead to me. i really wish that none of this ever happened. i wish that i could walk right up to them and say "Sorry for all of it" but i'm to stuborn to do that. i really do feel like shit for all the stuff i'm putting them through. I wan to tell them both that i love you. i want to wrap them up in my arms but i can't not any more. now there behind me and kistyn's doing her whole igot him and you don't dance. but hey thats her way of being stupid. i hate every ounce of her right now. no i don't but still. i feel like i'm battling with myself. We have to see which side wins this.