Yeah thanks everyone, thanks to you guys (they should know who they are) you managed to make me feel worthless again. Why this time? Some joke to find out if I was Bi or not, why not just ask? It’s not like I’d snap or remain silent. But now, now it’s humiliating everywhere I go; everywhere I go people mock me because of this. I got the blame for it too, I didn’t even announce it, I wouldn’t and I couldn’t do that to someone.
As for the guy who keeps repeatedly reminding me he doesn’t trust me anymore, thanks that’s like a stab in the chest. It’s that blunt, that harsh it hurts. I know you have your reasons, but how was I supposed to know you ever trusted me. This blog your eyes will probably see as ‘pathetic’ but in mine it’s a way of letting thoughts and feelings out before you take them out on people again.
Yeah alright I shouldn’t have done and said what I did, but you know why I did and said those things right? You must do by now, after all you keep reminding me how smart you are. Yeah there’s something else that hurts sometimes. I thought no-one could hurt me through words anymore; somehow you managed it, I mean some people can do that to. But telling someone constantly you don’t trust them that would hurt most people on the receiving end.
How was I supposed to know anything when you pushed me away? How am I supposed to know anything when you’re still slowly pushing, not as much but you are slowly. Also, when people ask what’s wrong (yes I know about the other day,) it’s because they genuinely care, not because they want a laugh at your expense.
I’m sorry if that offends anyone but it feels better to get it off my chest rather than having a dark cloud following me.