The Nada Syndrome

Originally, I didn't want to rant in my journal, but i don't know how i can communicate as of lately. I'm being writting like crazy but nothing really stands out. And hate to rant on anything thats emo unless its my friend who would do the same, but i need to sweat this out.

I hate when girls says " I wish I can go out with a guy like you" or "you would be a good boyfriend". I hate that and its annoying. Only if they really know me, only then they'll know the real me. I feel like I'm nada. In a way, i escape. I went from a invisible loner to being known. But that feeling of nadaness still hurts me when i'm alone. And i feel like i'm not even a good boyfriend. And i hate that. I never notice the ways i was negatively was changing. I kinda lost my old friends. Well, I don't talk as much to them because of me. Because I'm easily bored. And as i write i wonder if these thing i type of has any substance. Oh well, at this moment, I'm suffering the Nada Syndrome