Giving up on love...

is harder than I thought it would be. Yeah well giving up (especially on love) doesn't sound really good, but the aftermath? It's far worse.

Maybe it's just me. Or I don't know...

Okay this journal is pointless, I know. I'm basically just typing whatever is on my mind.

Anyway, well... what am I supposed to do now? I can't move on. I'm trying. I was the one who ended it anyway (w/c made things worse for me to accept, to be honest)

I found it really hard to hold on to it. Holding on made everything painful for me. And I thought letting go would help me get rid of the burden I carry.

But it didn't.

Is it because it was I who ended it all? That the regret makes it all hard for me to cope up with the idea of moving on?

Or am I just getting what I deserve?

These questions are weakening me, both emotionally and socially. But I know there's nothing I could do except to move on. Everything's all said and done.

But honestly, I wish I hadn't ended it all.

I feel such a loser.