Cutting..

Yes, I am a cutter.. It's though nothing I'd tell my class, or my closest friends that I meet, but on the internet it's different.. Because here no one knows who I am and I know that you wont juge me too badly.. I mean, it's not like you can spread this around or ignore me or something.. But anyway I cut because I can just take that much shit in my life.. I am not gonna bore you and tell you my lifes history right now, but it is not calm and fun..

And tomorrow I have school.. Fun.. Not.. I think I might skip the last class or so, but I don't know.. I might not.. I don't know right now..

I love the internet for one reason; I can be myself on here.. I don't have to pretend that I am happy when I'm not and I don't have to hide my tears for anyone.. If I only had any tears to hide...

I cant cry and it's frustrating.

My mom doesnt take me seriously and it's frustrating

My friends uses me as a therapist and it's frustrating (Who should I turn to when I feel like killing myself?!)
And I let them do it. I let them use me as a therapist whenever their lifes are 'going to hell'. I push my own problems aside and take care of their problems instead. I don't even once tell them how I feel.. It's all about them..

I guess dealing with someone elses problems is easier than dealing with my own pathetic life.. :/

/end worthless rant