Sometimes I wonder if it's me or is it them.

I've been noticing that lately I've been drifting away from my "group" or the people I constantly surround myself with and call my friends. It started weeks back but, I never gave it much thought until it became more apparent. I always believed them to be true friends and all that other great stuff but now I feel like I'm watching them through a closed window. They all look so happy in their little world and always walk in their little line while I follow far behind.

I was never much good at having friends so I just got used to being alone. Now it's much different, I don't want to be alone. I guess I never wanted to be in the first place. Yet, if I do drift off from them I'll be left with no one else. I could always just join the other "group" but they don't like me much. Also my previous real close friend ditched me for them. I don't what I'm going to do about it though. I always have nowhere to go.

"Jersey just got colder and I'll have you know I'm scared to death"

-Mayday Parade

I never knew how right that lyric could be...
December 12th, 2008 at 04:11am