I don't like the person I've become.

Seriously, I don't.

I was never hard-working or anything, but lately I've been just... blaaah. It seems that I've given up on eveything that I used to do good.

Sometimes I just look into the mirror and as myself "hey, where's your last design?" or at least "where's the last line you drew?". and then I realize the last real, well-finished design I've made is from SEPTEMBER. Three months.

Not to mention writing. Yes, my sister messed up my computer and I lost almost everything I'd ever written, but I can't see how that allows me not to write anything anymore. I have the inspiration, I miss it, but I can't seem to bring myself to it.

Yes, school is taking plenty of time, but that's no excuse. It's like I forgot all the tenacity I had in making myself draw better. And in writing pretty stuff.

Anyways... I sense a whole lot more laziness coming my way along with the holidays... do have to work pretty hard to convince my dad to allow me to go out of town with my friends...

Have you guys ever been through a period where you felt that you've changed for no apparent reason?
December 12th, 2008 at 12:43pm