i dont want to jinx this

buttt. . .
Im so happy at the moment! i swear i haven't been this happy in ages.I honestly feel like iv opened my eyes and seen a bright and exciting world that has been there for me for so long already.
i have so much good in my life and the only thing holding me back is me.

For example last night i was allowed out of hospital for the weekend, and i went to go see my 3 friends band play thier first gig, and my friend who is the lead singer, was like "erm this is a song called the G song and its for a special friend Georgie Hall"

i was like o my goodness! i just felt soo special!

They all gave me massive hugs, and Sam was like 'Georgie its the least i can do, im so glad you could come'

and iv only known these people since September!
It makes me feel like people are just too nice to me, and i just let them down.

anywayy im excited for tomorrow for the first time in a loong time and i just needed to record this feeling!

happy almost christmas everyone!!

xxxxxx