The break-up.

A break - up via text message. Huh, as if thats not gonna fucking hurt. Is it just me or are all men fucking heartless. Why can't I meet one decent guy ?
Well that was yesterday the text was sent and its only just sank in right now. So hears how the shock and horro finally came to me.
When someone I called friend asked me,
'Are you ok ?'
And this was my reply:

As if that doesn't rip up a slutty girl like me. I remember the day he called me a slag. Does he not think it was hard for me too when all that shit happened long ago.
And the shit with my family...
Even at Xmas the war wages on for crying out loud and yet he still decides to break up with me before it. Who have I got to lean on now ? I was trying to be there for him, I mean he could've called my house phone for crying out loud. I got banned from the house phone because I called him so many times on his mobile phone. I feel dirty and used by him. I mean, I had sex with him outside on more than one occasion and on webcam ? don't get me started. Yes he paid for me n that but thats not what I wanted. It felt like I was only good for sex. I mean, when I got in a massive fight with one of my best pals, I called hima dn guess what he said ? I can't be there my mum says no. I wish I'd called my brother instead. I once went out with a guy, years ago, who would literally die for me, he really set the bar for other men in my life. He fucking died. So Im not meant for happiness. I tried everything with him, but all it was the sex, it felt like to me. Always wanting to drink, always wanting sex. Hes exactly the way Roy was. With every day it gets to the point where Im like 'Do I really wanna do this anymore ?'. I mean I get shit at home, shit at school, shit when I go out. I came home with gushing knuckles and a burst lip. hey I'll admit, I put up the good fight, but 3 against 1 ? Nae chance like. yes Im totally drunk right now. Yes that might be the reason why Im telling you this but to be honest ? It because
You were the only one who asked if I was ok.
Thats why i respect you. When me and Mark finnished the first time, no one asked me if I was ok, no one said to me, you can stay at my house for a while. Even my family didn't ask me if I was ok. Yeah it was a shock getting asked if I was ok, so thanks kiddo. Thank you.
Yeah in answer to your question.
No, im not ok.

Thats my fucking life.
theSUPERMODELROBOT.
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