Christmas

i feel so fucking fat.
i feel so fucking fat.
i feel so fucking fat.
i feel so fucking fat.

i hate myself.

Why is it,when the supposed "happiest time of the year" is the worst for me?

i fucking hate Christmas.
I feel so fat.
I feel so abused.
I want to never drink,because im so scared of being turned into her.

I fucking hate Christmas.

I want to fucking bleed my arms out.

I want to be fucking skinny.

I want to be loved.

When will the season bring joy to my life??

I'm so sorry Jesus.