Carrying someone's happiness is hard.

Argh! this is one of those twisted stories. Boy meets girl, Boy kisses girl, girl loves boy, boy will do anything for girl, girl meets other boy, other boy flirts continously with girl, girl stops loving boy, girl is confused by other boy, girl doesn't wanna hurt boy, boy still loves girl, girl pretends to be happy for boy, girl doesn't understand other boy. If you haven't figured it out, im girl, my boyfriend, ryan is boy, and my equadorian friend is other boy. i hate this situation. i do care about ryan, but i don't love him, im simply pretending so he doesn't feel hurt, but its hurting me to lie to him. im somehow intrugied by my friend, he's...mysterious. ryan is sweet, but not the cutest guy around, im not superficial, but i know love is about some physical attraction. and my friend is well hot. i dont know wat to do, it's crushing me.