And where to be now, exactly?

"A journey of a thousand miles begins with the first step" .
Thats not vague at all -__-. what if i took my first step and now I'm wondering when my journey is supposed to begin? What if in reality I've taken millions of steps without knowing what my journey even is yet? Here in lies the predicament of the situation. (that and the fact I can't spell to save my life). So I keep wondering what in the world I'm supposed to be doing to feel worth while. there are those odd moments, when i do something that gets seen or affects someone for the good, that i feel like i have a purpose, but otherwise I feel like I'm looking for something to be worth even the smallest bit. I know people who would read this and hug me and tell me how worth while I am, but thats not it. I need to do something, or be SOMETHING to even feel human. I'm not an attention seeker at all, i just need a vent, a creation to reflect what I'm thinking or who I am past a web profile......

I guess this is a short entry but I'm to focussed on what I'm trying to write that I can't word it out without seeming Malicious...