my chemical romance rant :]

so yeahh,
i moved this from myspace since i don't use it anymore :]

enjoy my ranting-ness :P

i love this band more that anything. not because of their looks, but of what they have to say. no one was there more than this band ever was to me, i give them my heart and soul, i will DIE for them. their lyrics are so inspirational, so beautiful, full of emotion. anybody who couldn't see that doesn't have a heart. my heart goes wild everytime i listen to their music, my knees become weak as they are plaguing my thoughts. what is more, is that they actually care about you. they would stop playing the music if someone falls in the mosh pit. they care about their fans so much, they love their fans.

they are fucking godsends i swear to you. they are the geniuses the world desperately needs. their lyrics speak to me, like nothing has. it's beautiful. you can tell it came from deep inside their hearts and reflects their longing to save lives. and they succeeded at that. lots of people think they are always negative, always talking about the bad things in life. but no, they also have many more positive things to say. so much things that came out of their mouths saves lives, make lives worth living, and there is nothing negative about that. they taught me more than anybody, any teacher, any lesson or anything ever did. i wouldn't know what will i be if they didn't exist in this world. kids were depressed and as lonely as a kid could be when they haven't shown their face in the world, they told us: 'its okay to be messed up, because there are five other guys who are more messed up than you are'.

the kids had hope, i had hope, that maybe its okay to be messed up and just held our heads high and let things fall into place. when i hadn't known who they were, i was trying so hard to cover up everything that i thought people wouldn't accept, i had to lie and pretend that i was like everybody else, not my actual weird self. and now even years of listening to them, sometimes i was so afraid that i wouldn't be accepted, but i know now that that is a stupid fear, and people should just like me the way i am. mcr taught me that, along with so many other things that i now know. their words, not only in song, but what they say has spoke into my soul like nothing else has. every single thing that they said, will impact my life in one way or another. so meaningful and beautiful at the same time. gerard has said ' dont take anyone's shit and never let them take you alive.' and that is exactly what i am going to do. I am not going to take anyone's shit anymore, and i am not going to let people tell me that i am not good enough. i'll decide for myself. they have given me my dignity, where it has been taken away from me for so long.

they are just honest, creative and intelligent guys with a message to the world.

i have never seen a band with such dedication to a show and their fans like they did. i was in awe when i saw them live and even just from some shitty videos in youtube. they performed with brand new energy every single time they performed, their hearts and souls were in their music and they passion for it was so clear. their music is the most important thing to me now, and the most important thing to me ever. their love and passion for performing on stage only adds to their already amazing lyrics and message to the world. every movement they made on stage will make me smile, and will renew my love of life. i will know my day will be an amazing day when i put my iPod on shuffle in the morning and one of their songs came on. their mere aura will send me skipping and laughing through the day. i trust them with my whole heart and soul, and i will give them my everything.

when i first saw them live, i was hyperventilating at school earlier that day because i got a detention. not because it was unlike me to get one, but i was so scared that it might lessen my chances on getting in one of the rows nearest to them. and when i was queueing outside the venue i was sweating and i felt so nauseous and i felt like im going to faint. when the my chemical romance logo thingy was raised behind the stage, i was already screaming my lungs out, and my eyes filled up with tears. i was gripping my friend's hand so tightly and i was still screaming my lungs out when i actually saw them. im pretty sure that i froze with my mouth opened. my heart was thudding so loud until i registered that this wasn't a dream and that i am standing in the presence of the guys that i admire most. then came the first song; this is how i disappear. my insides felt like it was on fire and i danced and screamed out the lyrics like i haven't before in my whole life. and until the end of the concert i was still screaming and crying, silently begging them to come out again.

31st january 2008,
the best day of my life :]

ray toro:
the gods of music had brought him down from guitar heaven :] he is one of the most amazing guitar players alive, i couldn't imagine what mcr could possibly be without him. i thank god he fucking exists because if he doesn't some of the best riffs in the world wouldn't be born *tear*. awwh god he is so fucking talented and he doesn't act like the typical 'rock star' would. he is so humble and honest in everything he does, and still making music like no one else did. annnnnd lets not forget kids: THE HOLY FUCKING FRO. it looks amazing on him, especially when he plays guitar and bangs his head :] his fro looks like a brown forrest in an october breeze :'] . also one of the funniest thing about his awesomely awesome fro is that MY SISTER HAS ONE TOO! i was hysterical when i realized that his fro is exactly like my sister's, although my sister has black hair. she is so fucking proud. she's only 12 but she's always bragging about her torolicious fro [that's how she puts it -_-] and how ray is her long lost brother. she became toro crazy that every time that is required to put her last name, she would put 'toro'. awh god if he doesn't exist the world of music will not be the same :']. even though he is smart like fucking hell, he is still random and funny like the other guys in the band are, he says stuff like: "Unfortunately, most men would only be interested in a woman's mind if it bounced when she walked." or "Where can I get an Italian ice cream? We got one in the afternoon. That is what I would ask myself at the moment. I still keep thinking about the ice cream we had before." or my personal favorite: "Don't break the law, kids.". ahh mr toro is also very observant don't you think? i didn't even know that he knew about the frerard'/frikey/waycest/fray/frob/gray/raykey fanficts, but he clearly said in an interview:

"Stop making us having sex with each other in your fanfictions!" :]

ahhh bless his soul. sorry toro, no can do. frerard is just too damn good to give up :D

one of the best guitarists in the world,
and the man with the plan himself;
ray toro :]

mikey way:
ahhh mikeyyy fucking way :] he is extremely talented, despite what most motherfuckers think, i know mcr's bass lines aren't exactly 'ray toro complex' but it doesn't fucking mean mikey isn't less talented in what he does less than any other guys in the band. mikey is definitely capable of making something groundbreaking but i think he's just bidding his time for world domination *evil laugh*. he is so shy and adorable, like in interviews he barely says 3 or 4 lines but still every time he does says something it was random and adorable as hell :]. like "There would be less violence in the world if everyone used hula-hoops" or "We all have very humble backgrounds and very geeky interests." Oh god, i love how he likes to do a side head bang things when he plays on stage :] it looks funny and so cute on him. some people would think that it's totally weird but i think its funny. also he is so fucking strong, when he dealt with his problems in making the black parade, he came back with strength and energy, and it's like he never left at all. i wouldn't know what to do if i were in his position. he is amazing, through and through, and this is my favorite mikey quote, the one that meant the most to me;

"There would be less violence in the world if everyone used hula-hoops"

and i believe him completely :]

the shy, adorable and strong bassist,
the spiritual adviser himself;
mikey way :]

bob bryar:
i thank the good lord every day for bringing us bob bryar :] . mcr wouldn't be close to what it is now if they didn't have him. he is like a big, blonde, cuddly teddy bear, despite in most of his pictures it kind of looks like he's gonna go murder some one in a dirty alley. his fear of being filmed is so adorable, he would smack a camera until the lens break if they wouldn't stop filming him. he his without a doubt one of the best drummers in this world. oh god bobert is the most awesomest drummer in the world :] he is so fucking adorable and modest that no one would ever see him as a drummer in a famous rock band. he is so random too :] like "Gerard wears blue underwear." or "Call me Steve." . also he has an insane fear of the hospital O.O but don't we all? "An abscess was resting on my brain. I couldn't move, I couldn't talk. When I tried to leave the hospital, they said I'd die in two days if I left. So I sat back down." i laughed fucking hard when i read that. i love when he chose to go with superman cos frank made him feel shitty about it :] , i love how he gets freaked out when frank messes with him, or how he promised ray he will save him if he drowns in the ghost of you video :] . and most of all, i love 'bob's book of cats' :D, its so fucking awesome and cute that he's the only one who chose cats over dogs in the band. and i'll definitely buy it if it ever got published :] . also when mikey told bob's IM on a video and bob got back on him by telling his phone number, he is diabolical :] and we love him for that. also last but definitely not least; I SUPPORT BOB BRYAR'S SOLO PROJECT :D. it is way funny and awesome;

Bob: "In downtime I practice my solo project. It's all songs about Gerard. *sings* Oh Gerard..."
Frank: "It's called 'Gerardolopoly"
Bob: *sings* "Gerarrrd.. Oh Gerarrrd, you make my heart burrrnn.."

the cool, down to earth behind the scenes drummer,
and the muscle himself;
bob bryar :]

gerard way:
sweet motherfucking geetard way :] . he is a huge ball of creativity that wouldn't ran out of ideas. i bet if i sold his mind in 30 years or so, it will be 10 times more expensive than albert einstein's would ever be. gerard way is one of the people that i admire so much, his creativity would put the best artists in the world to shame. he is a fucking genius :] i couldn't put into words how amazingly beautiful his lyrics are, i could try, but that would take me days to describe. he writes and sings about what is real and what he truly feels. i admire him most for that. i will die before i could draw like gerard. he is just a talented artist i wouldn't even know what to say if i meet him. i don't know how he stays so fucking strong. if i was in his situation i will probably die a slow painful death. but gerard pulled through with the band right beside him. i love how he's so girly on stage :] i love his uber sexy dance moves, his chicken dance, his weird arm gestures :] and most of all the orgasmic noises that he likes to make on stage. ahhhhhhhh and he says way random things on stage, like "Oh you see good sir, I don't need that shoe, for I already have two, right here." or "I will fit into that prom dress, even if it kills me!". there is a reason why 'gerard' rhymes with 'retard' :D and we all love retards don't we? mr way wouldn't be forgotten, i'll make sure of that, he is a legend in the making and one day people will definitely remember him. and as frank said;

"Gerard, in my view, is the second coolest motherfucker on this planet. Second because i'm first, and therefore cooler"

my inspiration and my saviour,
the off-center leader himself;
gerard way :]

frank iero:
shit dude, his rant is in another post, cos it'll be way more than this post could handle :]

Gerard Way, Frank Iero, Mikey Way, Ray Toro and Bob Bryar, who knew these 5 men can save so many lives? they made my life worth living, made my life not utterly pointless. maybe to you that they're just another emo band. but to me, they are a band that saves lives, who speak in a language so beautiful that they have to turn it into song.

as much as i want to hug every single mcr fan out there, i think that teenies should die a slow painful death, they are like a pimple in the face of music. i don't fucking understand why some 'fans' would totally under estimate bob and ray, and sometimes that they aren't nearly as important as what the other guys were. that absolutely sickens me. without bob and ray mcr wouldn't be mcr, ray comes up with the best riffs known to mankind and bob is the absolutely talented drummer who came and saved mcr when they were in a downward spiral. i couldn't imagine what mcr would be without them.

ily Bob and Ray. :]

most people out there who calls themselves hardcore fans, would probably be screaming 'GEERARRD, I WANT TO HAVE YOUR BABIEZZZ' in concerts. it saddens me to no end how it became less about the music and more about the people. sure the people are important, but isn't the music more important? i wouldn't care if gerard was 50 and had three heads, they would still be my favorite band. their music, their dedication, their passion is all i ever asked for, and needless to say, i've gotten what i wanted. their music is so raw and merciless that people couldn't help but stop and admire it.

i really don't understand how some people would just go to concerts, stand there screaming and clapping for the person on stage but not get into the stuff that they're singing about. how could you do that? i mean couldn't you close your eyes and feel the music straight from the lips of the singer to your ears and to your heart. it's a powerful thought, hearing the music that you've been listening for months or years and finally hearing it with your own ears, straight from the person who made it. it's interesting how artists might sing songs differently every night, i was always the person who would look for these differences, not for me to compare and judge them, but for me to enjoy these imperfections and bits of personality that they put in it. maybe it was something that they haven't thought before, or maybe it was something that just happened on stage. i find it interesting just to catch a different glimpse of their personalities in the music, it makes the connection, you know?

if you wanna talk shit about them, fine. it isn't my place to say what you could or could not say. i dont care what shit you want to say about MCR, all I know is that it isn't true. i've always been hearing lots of negative things about them from my family and friends, and guess what? i don't fucking care what they think about mcr. mcr is the one and only thing that i will love with all my heart, i wouldn't care if the whole world hated them, i will still love them :] And I believe in my chemical romance and know that they wouldn't be shit, I know they're not.

i couldn't thank them enough of what they have done for me. dear god, i don't know what will i do with my life if they didn't exist. i know that im not their very first fan, but i love them enough to last a lifetime. just because i wasn't with them from the very beginning that doesn't mean that i don't love them any less than some of the very early fans do. i love them, more than anyone ever imagined and no one will understand. i know that most of the people who's reading this is gonna laugh their heads off but i don't fucking care. i don't care if you don't believe me, i don't care if you think i'm just a fucking depressed teenager for liking them this much, i don't care if you think that i'm being over dramatic, i wouldn't give a shit. all that matters to me is that i love them more than anyone could ever imagine. judge me all you want, see if i care.

maybe if you know me, it wouldn't be so obvious, but if anyone just mention the word 'chemical' even if they are in the other side of the room, my head would snap up and my heart thudded a million times harder. if anyone say as much as any of the names of the guys in the band, a secret smile would usually light my face and i would fall in love with them all over again. no one will understand how much i adore and love them. think of it this way, think of something that you love the most, multiply it by 239847203847, then multiply it by infinity, you're still about 1/3 of the way there.

there aren't enough words in this universe for me to describe how much i look up to them and adore them. they have my full heart, soul and my everything. it will always be the music for me, nothing less, nothing more. i will support them until the day i die.