Why can't I keep you?

Its easy to get jealous.
When I can’t have you all the time and what time I do have you you’re tired, sick, aggravated, mad, and sad.
What hurts even more is…I cant fix it.
I begged.
I pleaded.
Just stay.

Please, just stay with me.
One more night.

No.

When I said you loved work more than me. I meant it maybe you just cried because you knew I did.
You’d rather leave me so you know you could get to work than stay with me and take a chance.
That’s okay.
Just fine.

I know you love me, I know you do.
Why cant I make you stay with me?

I’m not good enough.
Skinny enough.
Smart enough.
Pretty enough.
Funny enough.
Sweet enough.
Understanding enough.
Girly enough.
I’m not enough.

I wish that I could stay with you forever.
Though you don’t think that will happen.
I want to lay in my bed with you until time ends.
But you can’t see that.

At least I don’t know about it.
I loved you with everything I have.
I took care of you with everything I can.
I do anything I can for you.

But you cant for me.
I put everything in me into this.
And you can’t.

You have work.
You have family.
You have a home.
You have responsibility.
What about the responsibility to love the woman that’s going to be your wife with everything and anything?

It’s not important enough. I’m not important enough to make you change your mind.