im very sad

because i came home to my grandma crying
and she wont tell me why.

theres so many things it could be.
so many things could go wrong.
so many things have gone wrong.
so many things are just wrong.

she locked herself in the bathroom just now.
im so worried...

im so useless. i want her to be able to trust me. i wish we could be how its suppose to be.
im so scared.

what is going on.
why wont you let me know.
what have i done this time.
why are we even here.

we ruined everything for you and im sorry. if i could, i would take everything back. every single day ive spent here. even though i loved every hour of it. even if God took it all away. all my memories and friends and recollections. id be fine with that as long as you were happy. as long as your life was the way it use to be. im sorry grandma. im so sorry.
January 31st, 2009 at 02:19am