Journals suck

Things are just going from bad to worse. I've been so wrapped up in my own little fantasy that I failed to notice one of the best things in my life was falling apart. Today was the day I found out that Deity ws never going to be the same, and you know what? that fucking sucks. I found out from Sam, the drummer. He was slagging Sam.W off completly and I didn't know what to do. They're both my friends, I have a hard time making friends let alone choosing between them. Then there was Kev. Kev's this guy I really like but I don't quite know where I stand with him. We had arranged to meet up today at PRC but he didnt show. Kyle rang him and aparently he just said "Dont wanna come." So much for being my friend and 'liking' me. I just don't know what to do, I really like him but he just does'nt seem to realise how much. Anyways enough of me rambling on.
Love and cookies xx