Final term and I can smell failure.

I don't know why I am so pessimistic. I have been battling with it ever since I stepped into college. I'm very much optimistic before but I guess a lot has changed. It is an unwanted feeling though. Another thing is, I have such high expectations with myself it's like there's no room for mistakes but I commit them most of the time. Ah I need to loosen up and stop worrying so much! I have a lot of things to consider but most of them are not worthy of worrying of. All I do is keep everything with myself but it's hard for me to trust people. :| What the hell@me eh? Anyway, I have a lot of school works to do and still I'm procrastinating. Ah laziness taking over again... it's because of me I feel as such. I'm my worst own enemy. I'm scared. I'm scared of everything.

I have yet to learn how to control myself.
I have yet to learn how to love myself.