I feel like I'm spiraling downhill.

I feel like I'm only going through the motions. Everything is a constant blur of the same thing again and again. I feel like I'm living the same day over, and over, and over again. Nothing is changing, nothing is happening.

I'm sick of the way my life is going right now. I feel like I'm not really living my life, only going through each day. I feel like everything I do, I've done the day before and the day before that. I don't know, there's just nothing going on in my life. Lately, whenever someone asks "What's up?", I have nothing to say. Because nothing is happening.

I'm sick of nothing happening! I need something to happen in my life. Not want, need. My life is too simple right now. Too simple, and too boring. I don't do simple. I don't know how. I need to feel like I'm doing something with my life, like I make a difference for someone. I don't want to waste away my life.

I feel a mental breakdown coming soon. And I'm really scared for it.