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I don't know what to do anymore. I can't stand anything. I can't even stand him. I hate being around him sometimes it just I don't know. I just don't have the capacity right now to deal with him. All I really want to do is cry and cry, but my mom always says I'm being dramatic. Is it really that dramatic to hurt so much over losing your own mother? I can't do this. I just want to do what I always do, shut out the world and come out when I'm ready. Is that asking for too much? Yeah I know it's childish, but I just can't deal. I kind of just want to runaway from everything, but I know that's not the answer. I just need time to myself. I get so overwhelmed and where do I go when I need time to put myself together? I can't have them see me like this because I always get ridiculed for it, for being to emotional. When can I fucking be emotional? I hate this right now. I don't blame anyone, but it just gets to me. There's only so much a girl can take. I've passed the capacity of toleration or tolerance as Jorge continuously continues to correct me on that. Did that make sense? I hope it did because I don't feel like rewording and rereading that shit.\

You don't know what it's like to be like me.

To be hurt. To feel lost. To be left out in the dark.

xox Bam