***ing Shit.

Everything turned to fucking shit, i swear to god it has. I've moved house and i though it was all going to be fine, like a new start would be good and everything. Well it’s not, i mean i can live without internet for a while, but i live so far away from my friends, i miss them way to much i can’t deal with it.

I miss Jessie so much, i can’t deal with it. I mean, we didn't mean to get grounded and i go home tomorrow, and i'm without internet and my phones dodgy...i can’t bear it..

And then i thought everything was getting better, but no ! The lad i like, drops a fucking bombshell, he likes someone else. And he starts talking to me about it and i really cannot handle it. And when we were with him the other night i thought he liked me, he made it look like he actually liked me. Well no it was all a big misunderstanding!!! And he needs to tell a girl he loves her. How come nothing ever goes right for me?

I fucking hate everything right now, including him. I don't care about anyone or anything. I just want to sleep, or run away cause i really cannot deal with this shit right now to be quite honest.

If he's reading this do i look like i give a fuck? Cause honestly i don't. Only Jessie knows how much i love him !