I wish I could just give up with school.

NOTE: This is merely a rant of a complete idiot who does not want to do any homework at all.

I can't, however, because that'd mean not being able to go to college and getting a rather crappy job. I don't feel like doing any of the work I've been assigned anymore, and I have barely done any of my homework this week. I have two projects due Monday for Adv. English, and I know I have to seriously get those projects done! I already didn't do one project this week, and my grade, according to the Internet thing my school has, is only an 83! Ugh! I don't feel like trying at all! It's just... emotions. It's not like I'm going to get anywhere after school, anyway. What are the chances of that? Hah.

I know I could do way better in school if I just tried. Two years ago, I was on the First Honor Roll the entire year. Then, I didn't feel like trying nearly as well. My... emotions prevent me from wanting to work to my capacity and sometimes even to do anything at all. I'm not failing or anything, but there's no way I am working to my full potential. I wish I could try. I truly wish I were like all those other smart kids in my advanced classes who proudly give it their all. I can't, however. I. Just. Can't.