I Just Threw Away Seven Years Of My Life.

Literally i really did just throw away seven years of my life or deleted you could say.
I have been friends with these group of people for seven years and i love them. But now we all go to different schools and we don't talk anymore. Even though i wish we could we just don't. I feel like i have no control over it. If i had the choice it would be to be able to talk to them again. I miss them so much. And when i deleted their number I felt that I really don't have anything else but the memories i feel like seven years of my life is with them i have no control over it now and it really sucks. And that was SEVEN years of my life that is now missing. i just want to cry, but even if i do are they even going to come back? i really don't think so. i just feel like i threw seven years of my life and friends away. They are not around anymore. Its like they're there but yet they're not. Its just memories. Anyone have a song that describes me right now please message me I really need to listen to a song that explains me right now. Yeah this may seem silly but to me its my life. And right now it kinda sucks.