Happy Birthday Erika!

Dear Erika,
there are no words that can tell you everything I want to say now. I had this idea even before you went on your vacation, to Paris, with your parents, as I thought you would enjoy seeing all your friends wishing you a Happy Birthday when you came back online. I just wish I had my thoughts right, and that you enjoy this ^^

I have never seen you and it doesn't matter what you look like in your now seventeen years old, because beautiful souls don't have to come in 'beauty bags'. You are worth every single word I might right from now on, and also every single letter I've typed to you until today. You have no idea how special you are to me, I don't even know if I have idea myself, but you truly are special as not many people have been so far.

Today is a special day. I don't know how you usually celebrate your birthday, but I always try to make it the best day I've ever had. It doesn't matter that it is replayed once a year, because every single one of them is different on its nature and on the people that make it. This year, your birthday will be different from last year, I am sure, not because of this surprise but because you're growing older and you've learned so much throughout these last months. I've been watching you closely and carefully since the day we've met, here, on Mibba, and I can tell that you're different, that you learned something, that you are better.

You are a better writer, but that's not all that matters now. You are a better person. I can't establish any sort of comparison with previous years, since I've known you for only months, but I am sure that you grew up in your soul, as you've grown up in your skills. People always do when they're surrounded by others that make them talk, learn and grow up. I just wish you see getting older as I see, as our admired Gerard Way sees: getting older means learning, not simply decaying. Do you see it the same way?

Well, today a lot of people will wish you a Happy Birthday, and I sincerely wish you have a happy one, and it will symbolize another year that passes by to you and to all of us. I wasn't here last year to wish you the same, but I am here today, and I hope you like this =] I also hope that all these years have brought you a lot of good and bad things, which you managed to go through, fight against and survive to, and I am very proud of having found your story and having commented it that day in the past. I don't know when it was, and I can't say if it bothers you, but I don't care when it was. It happened and that's what really matters now. I was brought to you by what some people call fate, but I call nothing specific. It just happened, and I am glad that I did find you.

I am glad that we managed to be such good friends, and I am more than proud to have you as my friend. You're such an amazing person, Erika! I love you for that, and for all the other things you can be. I love you and I love this opportunity of celebrating another of your birthdays with you, even that we're separated by some land and rivers. It doesn't matter; we're together in soul and in heart, and I adore our friendship. I have a particular place in my heart for you, and no one will ever replace you there. I had it empty when I met you, so I guess it was born with me to be fulfilled with your magnificent presence =]

This is one of the reasons why I prepared you this surprise and why I write this simple, yet meaningful words. I wish you keep living on earth as the great Erika I've known so far, and I can't help but wish that all your dreams come true, either now or in the future. You definitely deserve one (future) filled with marvellous months, joyful messages and achieved goals. You can even try to deny me the pleasure of writing this, telling me that this is just one day that passes by and gets you older one year, or saying that all birthday wishes re the same and that they're just another cliché thing this world created, or arguing with me to try and convince me that you don't deserve any of this, etc. Well, I don't care if the world is gonna implode tomorrow (we don't want it, but we never know...), and I don't care if time passes by equally for each human on earth, and I don't care that some thoughts turn out to be very basic once they're turned into simple words; I don't care that two personal paths, that once seemed parallel, turn out to be just another indecisions mess, or another massive wall of difficulties... It doesn't matter to me, because I am writing this down, and you are reading it to yourself, and what we are supposed to think of is the friendship we have and gladly share =]

That's why I don't care if you think that birthday wishes are meaningless or that you ignore my words, because the fact is that I write it and smile at it, because I know that these simple, perhaps confusing words, are the deepest things I can ever think about feeling when you're around. I just don't know what else to tell you, because there are no words that can tell you everything I want to say.

So even that you refuse this, you DO deserve what I am doing here! Because you are a joyful teenager who I am proud to have met one day; because you give us meaningful things that simply come out of your mind; because you always have a gentle word to those who come to talk to you; because you are always there to listen to your friends and to support them whenever they need; because you worry about the ones that mean the world to you, and maybe even to those who aren't that meaningful! You DO deserve what I am doing here for being the unique person you are; for having such a proper and personal way of living every day and greeting people; for being so honest in your smiles or critiques! You DO deserve this and I find fundamental that you read all this, because you certainly deserve many years in your future, so that you can live them as you've lived so far. You've been a special person to me, Erika, and you've inspired me in ways no one will ever be able to describe. And people like you are needed to make this world a better place. So if each person on earth has to do something to make it better and more worth our efforts, you can sigh in relief because you definitely are one of those who contributes to that. Plus, you do it in a very competent way! So stop being modest and accept my Birthday Wishes =D

Accept them with your heart, but that's not everything I have to wish you.
I wish you get all your dreams to come true.
I wish you grow up every single day of your life.
I wish you keep searching for that perfection.
I wish your tears get wiped by the sweetest hands.
I wish your lips get kissed by the softest love.
I wish your happiness gets fulfilled by the biggest smiles.
I wish that everyone around you be the happiest people, and make you the happiest person. I wish that they deserve that place inside your big and beautiful heart. You do deserve to be happy for the excellent person you've proved me to be, no matter how harsh the world and life have been to you. And more than anything I wish that you reach the greatest bliss in life, no matter how long it might take =]

Happy Birthday Erika.
You are beautiful, no matter what they say...
And you truly are special as not many people have been so far.
I love you :arms:

*Bonnie
April 14th, 2009 at 01:09am