The only thing...

The only thing that's standing in my way is you.
I have goals and dreams now that you aren't involved in really, but it still hurts me that you aren't there.
You continuously make excuse after excuse as to why... And i've decided to buy it this one last time.
I am just so damn tired.
I don't trust you anymore.
At least not with things you promise or reasons why you continuously break those promises.
What happened?
If it wasn't me and you're so perfect and together and you feel like everything is fine, then why isn't everything fine?
Will i never understand?
I want to and i'm trying to so hard, but nothing seems to have changed.
I wish i knew what needed to be done so that i could do it.
I miss my best friend and i miss someone i loved.
"Loved" should be "love", because i still love you.
I just wish it was as easy as it used to be and i wish you would be straight with me.
The chances of you ever reading this is slim to none, but i had to get it out.
I'm sorry that i couldn't be perfect then, and i'm sorry that i never will be.