every death hurts

Every death hurts, when you were close to that person. Every death makes you bring all the memories, every memory pierces u painfully, every memory begs never to be forgotten. Every death brings soo much regret for what you have not done. Every death makes you hate god even more. Every death is another reason for you to leave the world. Every death is just another sob story for your companians. Why can't god jst stop picking on you for a change? It hurts like a thosand punches all laid in the same spot. Every deaths gets you realising that your time is unknown.