Who Am I Anymore?

So recently I've felt like a different person, I'm not happy and I'm not sad, I'm stuck in between but lets just say I'm stirring towards being a mess. I get so happy and then everything just falls apart and I hate it. I don't know who I am anymore, I don't feel like I'm treated the same, apparently I'm emo cause I don't puke puppies and rainbows constantly. I just wish I could leave everything behind and start again. I have no idea how I am going to discover who I am, its scary to think I'm changing in to something I don't want to be.

I cant drag any inspiration together to write a good chapter for my story, right now I'm in tears and failing at revising for my RE exam tomorrow. Sometimes I feel like I only have my mum in this world and everything seems against me. I don't know maybe I'm emotional or being silly but to me this sucks, believe me I want to be happy, I hate moping around and feeling like I'm invisible.

I mean would you rather be happy and content with your life or clueless about what you want and who you are?