Is it still you?

i don't know what's happening. i don't think i want to know.
i still have to know. Is he giving up on me? slowly ?
is he having a hard time? am i too much?

i don't want it answered. i mean i don't wanna ask ..
i might get the answer im not expecting. it kills me
everytime he's irritated. i knew it .. there will always be a
negative side everytime i smile or worst, laugh. i don't even
wanna smile anymore, maybe things would get better ?
if yes then, i'd risk my smile just
to have the positive side of it..