i hate them

since the l;ast thing i rote ive been dumped my dad wants to shute my dog my horse is getting sick agean i lost my job and am no longer welcom at school not to mention that bitch his girlfrend wont leave i cant evin relax in my own home i cant let my gard down i was doing so well id given up drinking and drugs befor thay came back id gone almost 5 months without the first day there back i crack open a bottle of jack and drink tillo i pass out two weeks later im dumped bercause "we never talk youve changed" i was fine hell i was better then fine i was actuly doing well my head was clearing i cold think strait i didnt constantly have to stop myself from self harming i was happy i didnt have nightmears everynight i was happy now my laptop is the only thing i have left that i havent smashed or shreaded i just lost it my so called family didint evin try and stop me thay just walked out and left me to destroy everthing i have that ive worked so hard to get im expected to scrub on my hands and knees the mess that thay make i expexted to survive off leftovers from thear plates after theaver eaten thay dont evin remeber that im hear half the time ther to bisy focosing on my brother and his bitch when i do good no one remembers when i do bad no one forgets i get blamed on every litle thing he droped a plate and i got yelled at to clean it up half the time i want to kill myself half the time i wan t to kill them