Confession Post?

I wanted to do a confession post I need to vent so I really don't care if anyone cares I just need to get this shit out.

1. I've never had sex and I'm going to be 20 in November.
2. I'm bi.
3. I'm in love with my best friend which is a girl.
4. I used to cut and now it's the only thing I can think about.
5. I wish I could just do away with my worthless life.
6. I think my dad hates me.
7. I get verbally abused everyday of my life. (My dad calls me a worthless fuck-up all the time).
8. I wish I wasn't born.
9. I'm sorry, but penises are very weird looking and are akwardly warm.
10. I wish I didn't lurk so much.
11. (This really isn't a confession) I think I have the most random IPod ever.
12. I've never had a job.
13. I can't spell worth of shit.
14. I keep having these dreams where either I'm in a car crash or I'm homeless.
15. I wish people loved me as much as love them.
16. Sometimes I wish I could disapear to see if people actually care about.
17. Music has kept me sane.

Thank you I needed to vent =].