May 23, 2009-Saturday

Even though I know it will all be over soon...all the good times we've had...even though I know that they'll fade away into nothing but a memory...I'm somehow not afraid. I'm not afraid of the end. I'm only afraid of those memories fading into nothing..I'm afraid of forgetting. I don't want to forget you, Bruno. I couldn't live with myself. I love you...so, so much...and that's why I'm afraid of forgetting you. What would happen if we forgot each other?? What would become of all those wonderful memories?? Like the first time you tried to kiss me...I panicked a little and turned my head...ha...what if that had never happened?? Or what about the day you told me you loved me...what if you never did?? I would have gone on wondering what it would have been like...I never would have known that somone...somewhere...felt the same way about me. So here's to you, Bruno, and to all those perfect memories tha I will never forget. Here's to the memory of you running down my sidewalk in the rain...of us sitting on the swings at the park...of me crying when I thought you were leaving me, and then my relief when you took it all back...here's to you, Bruno. Here's to you. <3