I am full of indifference.

Day after day and nothing changes.
And I'm really ambivalent toward this.
I usually strive for change. I crave it. I need it.
But lately I've been feeling like the changes that are happening aren't the changes that I want.
I want things to work.
I want homeschooling and North Carolina and work to be good and everything to just work so I could be happy.
It's really not change that I'm craving, it's happiness.
Which should be achievable through changing things.
But I'm feeling pretty indifferent.
So, I am back at square one. Great.
I wonder if I make any sense.